Sang-gye

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Admont Abbey is a Benedictine monastery located on the Enns River in the town of Admont, Austria. It is the oldest remaining monastery in Styria and contains the largest monastic library in the world. The abbey is known for its Baroque architecture, art, and manuscripts. 

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The Lily - a poem by Mary Oliver
Night after nightdarknessenters the faceof the lily
which, lightly,closes its five wallsaround itself,and its purse
of honey,and its fragrance,and is contentto stand there
in the garden,not quite sleeping,and, maybe,saying in lily language
some small wordswe can’t heareven when there is no windanywhere,
its lipsare so secret,its tongueis so hidden–
or, maybe,it says nothing at allbut just stands therewith the patience
of vegetablesand saintsuntil the whole earth has turned aroundand the silver moon
becomes the golden sun–as the lily absolutely knew it would,which is itself, isn’t it,the perfect prayer?

The Lily - a poem by Mary Oliver

Night after night
darkness
enters the face
of the lily

which, lightly,
closes its five walls
around itself,
and its purse

of honey,
and its fragrance,
and is content
to stand there

in the garden,
not quite sleeping,
and, maybe,
saying in lily language

some small words
we can’t hear
even when there is no wind
anywhere,

its lips
are so secret,
its tongue
is so hidden–

or, maybe,
it says nothing at all
but just stands there
with the patience

of vegetables
and saints
until the whole earth has turned around
and the silver moon

becomes the golden sun–
as the lily absolutely knew it would,
which is itself, isn’t it,
the perfect prayer?

Pithy Morning

My journey has not been easy. But it is my journey. The path is often a very lonely place. But if we can transform that lonilness into surpreme solitude we are rewarded. What beauty can we offer tne world once we become the contented person? Won’t we naturally attract what is like us? Won’t we be content with what is in front on our eyes? Won’t we stop searching for that next thing that is going to make us happy? The beauty, the still, the content, the tranquil all lie in becoming increasing comfortable with yourself and the life you lead, right now. There’s nothing outside of yourself that can bring ultimate happiness. This truth transends all religions, notions, desires, and thoughts. In the beginning there was truth. Easier said than done. Easier said than realized. Realized easier than experienced. Our suffering is universal. When one being on this planet suffers, we suffer. There is not my pain. There is not my path. There is not my journey. This journey is shared with you. We get so caught up with “our pain” not realizing it’s not ours, its everyone’s. In that shared lies kinship with fellow man/woman. Connection. Reason. Our lives ultimately exsist to give of them. Everything is a gift. Incease burns to give fragrance. A candle melts to be the gift of life. In the same way we give all and in turn recieve heaven. Your reason is much more than you can ever feel for yourself. Remember that the next time you call yourself stupid. Who’s stupid? Because with reason, purpose is born. Heaven and Hell reisde here on earth, not in some otherworld. You’ve experienced both already. Hate, War, Hunger, Opression, Prejudice, all come from hate. Peace, Understanding, and healing all come from love. We should find out how to and practice that. Get out of bed in the morning for someone besides you.
Oh my God, you are here.
Oh my God, I am here.
Oh my God, we are here.

And always, always, always, you love us.
Always, always, always, you love us. 

- Franciscan blessing

Oh my God, you are here.
Oh my God, I am here.
Oh my God, we are here.

And always, always, always, you love us.
Always, always, always, you love us.

- Franciscan blessing

Real Happiness At Work: Resilience

“No working life comes without challenges, conflicts, pressures, setbacks, or moments of sheer exhaustion. Happiness at work depends on our ability to cope with the obstacles that come our way and to bounce back, learn from mistakes, make amends when necessary, and—most important of all— being again without rumination or regret. This is perhaps the greatest lesson of meditation and all mindfulness practice. That no matter what the circumstances, we are always able to begin again in a new moment. This is what we mean by resilience. No matter what happens, we can learn to use challenges as opportunities to grow, increase our awareness, and learn methods for making future challenges more tolerable.” - Sharon Salzberg The fourth chapter in Real Happiness at Work on resilience resonated with me so deeply and profoundly I was completely taken aback. To be completely honest I wasn’t sure how useful this book was going to be simply based on the title of the book. I now realize that the title is the title to get this book in the hands of as many people as possible. Don’t be fooled by the mass marketing title, because inside of it’s brilliant purple covers are pages and pages of profound wisdom and compassion, lovingly displayed for all to share. It also doesn’t even have to be about work. You can put any word in the end of that title. I’d prefer to call it “Real Happiness wherever you are.” In reading the chapter on resilience I found myself stopping periodically to just say out-loud “OH! that makes so much sense!” Sharon talks about life’s challenges being the biggest teacher one could possibly find and my experience in this life confirms this notion. I’ve always been one that is drawn to things not quite so perfect, a little rough around the edges, things that need a bit of work. Like many of my Sangha-mates I’ve experienced quite a bit of suffering and pain in this life, which I believe has brought me to this path of healing. When I relate my story to others I’ve all too often seen that sad look in their eyes as they listen to my words, wondering how I cope with such pain. Then that look disappears as I relate I wouldn’t be who I am, without that pain as my teacher. I’m constantly reminding myself and others to be grateful for this experience, wether it’s painful or joyful. I like to finish that sentence off with no matter what, no matter what (twice for good measure and to make that point resound). I’m under the impression that nothing we experience is by chance and we are given these opportunities to wake up and learn. We are given this chances to remain strong and powerful in the midst of chaos and turmoil. So that on the other side of that pain, when this experience settles we are left with an inner knowing that we can cope, no matter what. With this view of resilience, we can take on life head on. We can know that all situations are workable. It’s no easy task to stay with our discomfort when we’d much rather run away. But with this view, we can know that we are strong enough to make it through to the other side. The sun rises again and we’ve learned. We’ve faced fear, and transformed it into beauty. After living through such painful experiences I now have the golden opportunity to relate to others in their pain and suffering. I can say, hey I know how you feel, I’ve been there, and I’m here for you right now. Our painful experiences give us the opportunity to offer presence to others in need. What greater gift is there in the world but being there for someone? And that being there is also including being there for ourselves. This resilience also offers us the opportunity to change our perspective. We can know that we are all in this together and that every one of us is dealing with some great challenge that we could never fully understand. Though we may not be able to understand, we can offer our attention and care. This to me is the ultimate act of love and generosity. To relate to others when they feel alone, heals the heart. So the challenge is to not become overwhelmed in the midst of life’s (or work’s) difficulties, change your relationship to the challenge and know you are going through it to learn, to become wise, to open your heart, and remove sorrow from the world. Resilience will lead the way home. Stay strong, and love.

Be Still, and Be Light

When I am among the trees,
especially the willows and the honey locust,
equally th
e beech, the oaks and the pines,
they give off such hints of gladness.
I would almost say that they save me, and daily.

I am so distant from the hope of myself,
in which I have goodness, and discernment,
and never hurry through the world
but walk slowly, and bow often.

Around me the trees stir in their leaves
and call out, “Stay awhile.”
The light flows from their branches.

And they call again, “It’s simple,” they say,
“and you too have come
into the world to do this, to go easy, to be filled
with light, and to shine.”

- Mary Oliver

Go easy, and be filled with light. Mary knows what’s up.<3
Die with the wave
Ebb and Flow
Surrendering all effort
Being pulled
Being pushed
Letting go of want
Breathe and move
Die with the wave

Stop fighting
Start living 
Witnessing all life
In this very moment
Rolling
Rounding
Floating
Loving
Die with the wave

Feel the water 
Swirling 
Touching
Loving
Let go into unknown places
Die with the wave

No one knows whats next
We can be here
Ebbing 
Flowing
With all that is
Die with the wave

Feel supported
Feel breathed
Feel loved
Die with the wave

Move with nature
Dance with life
Let go into the void 
Die with the wave

Through letting go
Through witnessing
Through dying 
We live by letting go
Die with the wave.

Die with the wave
Ebb and Flow
Surrendering all effort
Being pulled
Being pushed
Letting go of want
Breathe and move
Die with the wave

Stop fighting
Start living
Witnessing all life
In this very moment
Rolling
Rounding
Floating
Loving
Die with the wave

Feel the water
Swirling
Touching
Loving
Let go into unknown places
Die with the wave

No one knows whats next
We can be here
Ebbing
Flowing
With all that is
Die with the wave

Feel supported
Feel breathed
Feel loved
Die with the wave

Move with nature
Dance with life
Let go into the void
Die with the wave

Through letting go
Through witnessing
Through dying
We live by letting go
Die with the wave.

I’m Still Here For Now.

Thoughts and contemplations on my “Year To Live” journaling and meditation process:

After seriously contemplating my demise within this year I’m in awe about how struck and inspired I feel. “Later” no longer exists. It’s amazing how much my ego wants to write down that I’m not really dying and this is all a process or experience. I also want to put quotes around “death” & “dying” to signify they aren’t really happening. But in clarity I know that I AM indeed in the process of dying, we all are. That’s the sad truth, but It can be liberating.

There were many parts of me that couldn’t look at death before. The moment any thought of death would arise I would literally shudder and close my eyes tight. But now I see death as a deep continuation. A blissful continuation if you can forgive and heal old wounds. In this year I want to know God. I want to come closer to the truth. I want to sit in silence everyday and feel complete gratitude for the ability to experience this amazing human reality. I want to tell everyone they are loved. I want to smile and touch the hearts of as many people as possible, in whatever way possible. I want to continue to forgive everyday. I want to work with all the beautiful and intense emotions that come with the process of forgiving. I want to release all doubt and worry. I want to publish my poetry. I want to heal and help others heal before I’m gone. I want to read sacred texts. I want to mediate everyday. I want to touch the earth, everyday. I want to travel. I want to know the earth I’m leaving behind. I want to share moments of connection and joy. I want to take care of animals and children. I want to feed the hungry, nourish the ill, clothe the naked, hug the lonely. I want to write everyday. I want to be love. I want to sing to God. I want to be completely devoted to witnessing every single moment of my own life. Every taste, touch, smell, sight, and sound. 100 % there, open, raw and fearless. Brave enough to live my life and make no apologies. I want to dance every step, dream every dream, and love every moment. What else is there?